Saturday, December 25
sighs. - Saturday, December 25, 2004
as i'm writing this i'm holding back my tears.
i'm trying to be strong.
i'm trying to move on.
i'm trying to just remember the few special moments tat we shared.
i didn't realise i wasn't going to c u again.
i didn't realise tat fridae morning my life would change.
i woke up and went on with my life.
juz another dae i told myself.
but tat dae , u made a difference.
not to me alone
but to everyone you knew.
i hate you for taking tat first step.
i hate you for being so foolish.
i hate you for doin the things you did.
i hate the way u left everyone crying.
i hate you for making me cry.
why did things have to end this way.
why did you sit on the ledge.
why couldn't you just say goodbye first.
why did you have to leave.
why did you have to leave so early.
you made xmas for me such a memorable one.
i'm not saying that in a gd wae at all.
there's one less present under the xmas tree.
one less present's just not there.
nothing's ever gonna replace that.sometimes i wonder if i made a difference
sometimes i wonder if i did enough.
sometimes i wonder if i could have prevented it all.
sometimes i wonder if i could have helped at all.
sometimes i wonder wad it would be like if u were still here.
sometimes i wonder why u had 2 go in the first place.
so now i'm just wishing u merry xmas.
a part of me knows that you can hear me say that.
a part of me thinks that i'm being just plain stupid.
merry xmas n a happie new year?.